It's been a while since writing anything here, and there's a lot of gaps that really should be filled in, but I have neither the time nor the motivation to start that right now.
Suffice to say God has done an awful lot in the last month, time after time He's lead me into situations that have resulted in amazing conversations, demonstrations of His power, and most importantly the glory of His name.
I've had times of such immense joy, and also times when that joy has been overshadowed by loneliness, but in the words of an Eritrean friend of mine 'God is good, God is good, God is good!'.
Holiness seems to be the word of the last few weeks, to seek a revelation of how Holy God really is.
It's easy to soften the attributes of God to make Him appear more approachable and 'nice' and fit our idea of what a god should be.
But there is a sense of awe and wonder, a sense of being undone and lost for words, a fear of the Lord.
Yes God is loving, merciful, faithful, a Father and also a friend, and through Jesus we can approach Him boldly and confidently; but God is also holy, righteous, pure, with a tremendous hatred and wrath towards sin.
It's only with that backdrop that we can really start to appreciate exactly what Jesus accomplished on that cross.
This last Sunday was truly amazing. In the morning the worship was so charged and anointed. We were called to go forward and gather at the front for communion whilst we worshipped, I was totally lost in God when my dad placed his hand on my head, only for a second, and shouted 'Hallelujah!', at that moment I felt power rush through my body, almost like electricity, I could barely keep my balance after I kept staggering almost falling over. Then after a few minuets one of the elders started praying over me and said 'Just let go' (strange as those were the exact words I'd heard a few weeks back at RAW, that I needed to let go and worship would be the key to that) and I collapsed to the floor.
I've never experienced that before, I just lay there as God ministered to me, I could feel Him all over me it was an amazing experience.
I made it back to my seat after a bit, in rather a daze, just as the preacher started speaking, every word hitting home so hard.
I thought 'God you've blown me away this morning' but if I thought He'd done that in the morning the evening was going to just about finish me off!...
Often in our church sadly Sunday nights tend to be more dry than the mornings, fewer people go and the worship is often cut short to keep the meeting from being to long.
But straight from the start the night was anointed. You could feel Gods presence so heavily, the young people were on their knees crying (that does not happen in our church usually!), it was just an incredible atmosphere of worship.
You could feel the glory of God pressing down so heavily that half way through I had to leave the room for a few minuets, I was just so overwhelmed.
My dad was due to speak that night but he went up to and just stood there for five minuets, before saying 'I can't speak tonight, I feel I have no license from God to break into what he's doing here', so we just worshipped the whole evening.
Last night the prayer meeting was amazing, I really believe God is doing a new thing in our church and a new thing in me, and I'm so excited about it!
I've felt like I've been walking on clouds the last few days, God is answering my prayers yet again, oh wow my God is good! :)
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